Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Candy Memories

"Mom?  Do you remember when we would go see Grandma Cindy at work?  She always had candy on her desk," Keegan told me recently.

"Yes Keegan.  I remember," I said.  "and when she didn't have M & Ms, she would have suckers for you"

"Yup, she did!"



I have no idea where that memory came from for him.  The last time we went to see her at work would have to have been during Summer 2010, when he was barely 3 years old.

It caught me off guard.

We had watched her "movie" a week or two before that, and the only thing that I could think of was maybe he saw the photo of her holding Baby Owen at her desk.  That was the only thing that I could think of that would have rattled it.

We talk about Grandma Cindy all the time, but it's usually me trying to put my own memories back into their heads. I had never mentioned that one. 

It was one of his own. 

Hidden in his little brain somewhere, waiting to come out.

I can't help but wonder what else he has locked in there.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Unreachable

Dad is on a cruise with my sister and two of his grandkids.  I'm SO happy that he decided to go, even if he felt a little guilty about going without Mom.  Mom wouldn't have missed out on a chance like that... to spend that quality time with some of her favorite people?  No Way!

But since he's gone into parts unknown... with cell reception unknown... I won't be able to talk to him until he gets back.

That is strange.  And not at all enjoyable.

I tend to call people when I'm in the car.  Though it's not always the best, and I managed to yell "I'm ON THE PHONE" at least 30 times per call... at least they are belted in and can't get too close to me....

So when I was on my way to the store the other night to pick up some birthday party supplies it hit me.  I couldn't call Dad.  On October 1st, 22 months from the day we lost Mom... I couldn't call Mom OR Dad.  They were both unreachable by phone...

I don't know how people do it.

For those people who have lost both of their parents, how do they live the rest of their lives knowing they can't ever call one of them again?

I do not like it.

It has me dreading the 2+ week trip he's taking this winter.

He's going to have to look into an international calling plan.