Freezing and Fast Forwarding

Keegan is finishing up 1st grade.  A child who had not even attended Pre-School is almost a 7-year old 2nd grader.

Suttie Joe attended Kindergarten Screening this week.  A child who was just beginning to speak is now gearing up for Kindergarten. 

Courty Foo Foo is potty trained.  A child's whose heartbeat had never been heard is no longer a baby or toddler, but a little girl.

I can't help but watch them and SEE them.  I see the amazing little people they are turning into, and can see glimpses of the amazing people they will become.  They are funny and infuriating and brilliant and quick and witty and loving and infuriating... wait, did I say that already?

I know that one day... not so long ago my own mother must have watched me wondering about the person I would become.  

I wonder if as a parent you ever stop watching your children with that sense amazement and awe.  I want to be their mom for as long as I can.  I want to be able to see where they go and who they become and what THEIR babies look like and if they look at them the same way I do now.

I want to freeze time and fast forward at the same time. I want to have these moments now, but want all those moments in the future too.  Can't I have that?